alrite, more to update today since im a lil bored n lazy =p
im done wif my stuff anw =p
thurs was helping out for darling's proj...
fri mid bf as well... sweet n nice x'mas eve =D
sat gif bf prezzie, happy he love it =p
sun i receive my gift frm him...
bt i cant eat nw, gotta w8 few days ltr n c hw my teeth goes...
ytd went to put seperator, preparing for braces on 5th Jan 2011 =X
anw is onliz e top teeth, wonder 3yrs ago hw i did it to overcome those pain...
since i cant realli go diet, nw is e best chance i think...
i can hardly eat, so miserable lor =C
wan eat bt cannot eat =X v sianz de lor...

sun went NEX awhile, bought/DIY cake at icing, was great...
cuz mainly im e 1 doing =p
im gd at writing on e cake man, haha...
took some pics, bt dunno gt chance to upload here ant...
was advance b'day celeb for darling's mommy...
as usual, bf cook, i help as well...
bf was so sick dat i haf to look aft him as well as ytd...
since ytd was sub x'mas holi for mi...
ytd travel here n dere, cuz gt dental appt as well...
juz to make sure i send bf hm den go for dental...
went bak to his hse aft i fetch my bro hm, chiong dwn ~
he cooked, reached n can eat liao =p
so sweet of him...
glad to hear dat he is actually feeling much betta today...
was thinking to go look for him, bt im nt feeling well too...
since ytd, abit nt feeling well le...

anw gotta c him dis fri le, hope he will b fully recover...

alrite, im a lazy blogger =X
been so long since i last blogged again =p

though wanna kip saying wanna diet, bt den ...
haiishx...
still eating as much since working xP
sakae sushi buffet, chocolate, ice-cream, cakes, tibits n etc...
im realli getting fatter...
shorts, pants, jeans, shirt, dress, skirts all became tighter alr T.T

n im getting easily hungry too...
last time 3-4hrs den will hungry, nw 2hrs onliz jiu wan eat liao =X

aft his oversea trip for so many days, his camp was still alrite...
somemore can contact abit abit... so still nt dat bad...
sun gng NEX, finally n hopefully ~

its been so long since i last blogged...
hmm...
recently busy wif work...
reach hm den play games, eat, family...
wkends aso lazy blog le...
today suddenly gt dis 'feel' to blog =p
ytd was sick, took MC...
went to doc den noe is fever...
medi was strong, so took once onliz...
afternoon went out wif bf...
notice i 'leave' or MC sure will go out wif frenz or him...
over his place, waited for him dwnstair...
he went to shower n eat, omg... 10-15mins n he's done...
LOLs.
i noe he is fast, always...
haha...
went to watch 'my brother, bruce lee'
though we noe nt a nice movie, though he say dun wan watch...
bt he still watch wif mi, cuz i wanna watch =p
2/3 movies dwn...
den he tell mi dun wan watch dat last movie le...
cuz like nt much slots, means nt nice =/

ytd was realli sick, bt thanks darling... make mi almost recover =D
he is great, love him =D
feel so bad, he seems so gd...
i seem nt worth for him =C
bt anw, ytd spend xtra on transport...
frm sembawang to yishun, by train onliz 71cents...
bt we took bus, frm his hse dere to yishun $1.09 =.=
more ex, though nearer... is like 'WTF'
nvm, i enjoyed ytd =D

few days bak, i ate sth realli nice...
n i wish to share wif readers who r viewing my blog =D
dat might b benefit for u...
e webbie can b found in my link or u can juz click -- Party Time

ate mini eclair chocolate n stawberry, realli nice...
all those mini eclairs gt ice-cream inside...
chill it, n it is realli fantastic...
price wise consider cheap, u all can take a look in e webbie...
dey onliz provide delivery...
$100 n u get free delivery alr...
best for parties or events...

my colleague finish up 1 tray(12 mini eclairs) in 1 nite...
most of dem bought 1-2cartons(12 tray in 1 carton)
some slash out 3-5 trays in 2days wif family...
comment like 'realli cant stop aft e 1st 1'
seriously, i tried ytd n realli great...
dis is y i share wif ppl here...
cuz i intend to order frm dem again... bt over $100 den worth...

other den eclair, more other stuff too... i nt yet try...
bt shd b nt bad =p
all pics categorize alr, go in check out bahx...
definitely u will love it =D

sign off wif regards ~

last thurs mid darling...
spend our 3rd anniv tgt, was happy...

ytd went swimming...
slept late.. cant slp...
bt as usual wakey early, haiishx...
feel so sick n unwell today...

today gonna take half day, for my dental X-RAY
hvn apply =X
hope can take MC, den jiu no nid apply =p
save my leave, LOLs.

每当我想起，我就想哭。
一种莫名的难过与伤感常一度涌起。
无法控制，无法解释。
让我从很累到好精神，真得无法解释为何如此。
除了我，没人能理解的吧 ！
我喜欢一个人可以很久，但不喜欢一个人也可以很久。
这是好还是不好呢 ！
这样的关系能维持多久 ？我真的不知道。
被这样的伤，我不知道该怎样放下而面对。
可能等到有一天我不再需要以泪洗脸的时候把 ！
但那个时候是几时呢 !
我也不想,我也不要让你这么为难啊 !

today marks our 3rd yr of R/S ♥ boyfren

at a mmt, im thinking of gng to ur place to look for u...
den i rmbx, i cant...
gng 1wk, i kip haf to remind myself i cant...
thinking n flashing bak make mi wanna drop tears...
especially dat day n e day aft...
for near 3days, i been crying to slp...
flashing bak n kip tearing to slp...

hmm... tough yrs ahead for us b4 marriage...
bt i believe for e following 10-11yrs of our GF/BF R/S, it wun melt...
kip burning, kip overcoming, kip working on it...

planned for today bt actually failed to perform smoothly...
i juz hope we r both happy today =D
n i gonna try take some pics today, hehex...

today bf aft wing chun, come my hse mid mi...
he v long nvr come le...
believe he will b coming abit more le bahx...
especially frm today onwards wun b gng to his place...
at least for dis few mths wun...

went chinatown, bugis, bishan...
happy, wif him ard...
he bought all his nid liao... happy too =]
we r gng to look for Bali package...
n book soon, happy ~
nxt yr vacation =D

play card monopoly...
he teach dis benben mi till quite fan, i believe...
haha...
im a noob learner =X
play 3times onliz win once, which is 2nd time...
i think is our 1st time playing card game...
believe will haf more...

hmm...
i wish to run ~
far far away ~

hmm...
i wanna cry ~
heart ache ~
emo ~
isolating ~
feel like mia-ing ~

haf been neglecting my bloggie for so long T.T
hope dere r still ppl waiting for my post n hoping to read...

last wk was darling's archery competition...
though lost, bt xperience for him...
2days competition in TP, bt onliz went 1st day =p

dis wk de mon had my o's eng...
nt too bad...
juz dat nt enuff time...
haf to rush to complete my ppr 2, last passage...
my benben darling ppr 1 essay write out of topic...
bt anw he nt require to re-take de...
cuz he no nid to pass aso can continue his studies...
for mi, haf to lor T.T
so muz pass... mid jan 2011 den result out...

dis few wks gonna b a short work wk for mi...
mon i took due to exam...
tml gt co D & D, so 2hrs earlier knock off...
gonna go hm prepare...
den fri no work, corporation day...
morning gng for chinese sensei den dental check...
nite time shd b gng for kaiyo kai mtg...

our corporation day gift frm co ^^
gonna gif darling e 4GB cute thumb drive =D

ytd aft work went dwn to tamp...
slack at library till 8pm...
den went kfc for dinner...
aft dat went dwn to changi airport...
reached at 9.15pm, even aft toilet...
darling's fligt delayed, reached at 10.05pm...
waited for him till near 11pm...
he went to bought alcohol...
we took train, circle line to bishan...
den took cab to my hse den to his...
reached hm at 12am, slept at 1am...
tok on fone for awhile...
read my chinese novel till 3/4 liao...
ytd go library borrow de...
luckily i still haf book, if nt idk wad to do...

dis morning wakey head heavy, dwn wif flu...
nw serious flu, ears block plus abit voice cracking...
hmm...
morning sunny bt suddenly rain when im abt to alight bus...
kana abit of rain...
cuz juz few steps away so nvr open umbrella, run over onliz...
today is a shaggy day for mi...
tired n sick day, gosh !!

Day 11

aft lunch... bak to my work desk...
quickly look at my fone...
26 miss call frm bf T.T
my bad...
i miss him =C
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DARLING IS COMING BAK TODAY !!!!!!

im gonna fetch him...
he told mi 9.45pm will reach SG...
i gonna reach at 9pm =p
betta to b early den late rite ;p

by rite tonite gt kaiyo-kai mtg de...
once every 6mths...
near my workplace...
CMI le, gotta w8 another 6mths...
cuz my bf wanna c mi, he miss mi lots =p
dis is e v 1st time i feel so loved by him...
din noe he miss mi so much =p
(hopefuly i dun get e wrong idea of wad he meant =p)
he realli love mi n miss mi lots...
getting ways to contact mi...
making mi so happy...
alrite, i sound like 1 siao cha bo =.=

cuz he called mi ytd =p
he bought prepaid card to call mi =D
ytd went out for lunch, he gave mi 6 miss call =X
waa...
din noe he so gan jiong of mi =p
always like so heck care T.T
bt at least i noe im missed lots by him...
damn showered wif love...

din get to slp well last nite...
dunno izzit to xcited to c him...
half day of work gonna up...
time passing fast ~
gonna c him in less den 12hrs...
omg !! i hope i can cool dwn n focus on my work...
rush rush, gotta faster do...

ltr aft work, gng tamp to slack...
den 8+ head to airport T1 =D

AWWWW !!!

I MISS MY BOY TOO =>

Day 7

FB fails to let mi login since early morning i reach office =.=
even until nw still cannot...
kip having error on fb, even login aso no use =X

like v long nvr update blog liao ar =p
day 7 liao, darling will b bak nxt mon nite le...
time passing fast...
exam coming, im scare T.T

emo since ytd evening while gng hm...
nw still feel abit, i believe ltr will feel strong again...
i miss him...
wonder hw he doing dere...
we compromise... bt did he??
i did...
i sms/fb everyday =D
will he??

Day 1

last nite overnite at bf's hse...
slept wif his mommy, on e same bed =p
wif his sis at e side on another bed =p
slept at 1am, bt i cant slp...
wakey at 4.30am...
so in end i think ard 1hr of slp shd haf bahx...
cold, cuz fan kip blowing mi...
no blanklet or pillow for mi to cover n hug T.T
e nite b4, din slp well, slp late too...
ytd too, more jialat...
tonite gotta slp more...

uploaded same pics to fb n blog...
realli miss him...
juz nw on e bus cry cuz miss him, i alr try nt to...
bt... juz cant stop...
stop awhile cry awhile...
bt manage to catch some slp on e bus...
near 2hrs journey, cuz traffic jam...
shd haf take train =.=
nvm, walk his mommy to take bus, jiu shun bian i aso bahx...
no nid take skytrain den train, so ma fan...

went mac to buy bre8fast, eat outside e station...
w8 for mommy n didi to arrive...
went NTUC, bak hm...
tonite gt tuition...
nt gonna nap, juz slp early n more tonite...

been a long time since i last update my blog...
been busy wif work n hm...
at work gt things to do, at hm too...
playing maple again - bootes
noob noob chara, cre8 for e seek of fun n playing...
anw gt ppl to chat n play wif inside include bf n his sis...
bf's frenz too...
so our BL is like all own ppl =p
1 person wif 1-2/3 chara inside BL, hehex...

anw had movie wif bf last nite aft work...
legend of fist - chen zhen... nt too bad...
damn quote it pls : WOMEN NOT SEX TOOLS FOR MEN !!
if u think of sex when u think of women, ohh plz...
get lost n jolly well get ur life up...
sex is nt everything when it comes to thinking of women okies...
arghh... damn hate it when heard it...
nt for abusing hor...
bloody hell spoilt ny mood...
anw i cried again in a movie =.=
alrite, its rather touching =p

n today is a zombie day for mi...
walking zombie-ly
kip yawning since morning...
on bus yawning n dozing...
at least, at work still ok... wun dozing...
bt i think lunch time will b dozing time for mi =x
is raining heavily outside, v cold T.T

gonna mid bf n overnite at his place tonite...
gonna wakey early tml morning n leave hm early...
n is damn early lor... nidda wakey at 4.30am =.=
manage to persuade mommy to let mi overnite his place...
bloody hate it when mommy restrict my freedom...
haiishx... recently my temper real bad man...
heng, at work wun haf dis issue... haiishx...
tiring n sleepy day for mi today...

anw gonna miss bf for e nxt 2wks...
2wks ltr den can mid him up...
11days ltr den will receive his sms n calls...
1st stage for us bahx...
nxt time he go ns dunno will b dis long or will b longer...
bt anw gona miss him real lots...
hope everything will go fine for him at dere...
n us, at seperate countries...
missing him badly n crazily is nt gd man...

ytd was mid autumn festival...

went to buy durian mooncake at prima deli...
bro aso self-made 1 mooncake in sch...
each of dem ownselves make de, small de...
nt bad... nice...
went dwnstairs to play lantern n fireworks...
took pics, stroll ard e park...
1st rnd walk alone(making mi feel so lonely), nxt rnd wif papa...
eat watermelon all dat, like small kid... haha
actually i hope to do all dis wif bf instead...
i hope dere will b chances to...

sth nt looking forward le...
feel so sad n disappointed...
been mood swing-ing quite some time...
trying to act like im nt...

days passing fast...
worries n fears becoming stronger...

*pics up tonite =D

Sad ; Disappointment ; Sick

i tot u will be e 1st to wish mi... no
i tot u was asleep aft 12mn... no
i saw ur name appear in my inbox, aft 12mn, thinking u will wish mi happy b'day(e 1st)... no

yet u replied my sms onliz :(

dat was so sad, so disappointed...
if u're asleep, im ok wif it... cuz u're tired n went to slp...
i will receive it tml...
bt no :(

21st seems like a num to mi, telling mi im turning older... n aging soon...
still e same restriction as e past...
i wan to rebel once, juz once... i wanna haf abit more freedom...
i wish to stay out late...
i wish to stay over at bf's hse even juz usual day...
i wish to go oversea wif bf/frenz...
dis r wad i say rebel once n more freedom...
bcuz i noe its hard, mommy restrict mi though papa dun care de...
i used to restrict myself nt to let dem worry...
bt nw im turning 21, will i get to haf more freedom?? idk
i wish... im wishing hard... hoping i will...

hw i wish dis day(today) dun arrive...
im scare...
i noe i will haf disappointment n sadness...
bt yet i cant stop e time frm moving...
still, it arrive... im feeling all dis...
im still kindda sick, hope will b betta ltr...
din get enuff slp, gotta nap awhile ltr...

been sick for a few days...
tues was e worst n in office somemore...
insist to stay till go hm...
took MC ytd...
rest n nap made mi felt betta alr...
bt still having sore throat, flu n ears blocked...
bt i swear, im realli feeling betta comparing past 2days =D

ytd nite went out for dinner...
awesome!! success "MINI" dinner ended a huge 1... lols
more den 20 pax...
e most female eva outing =D
was kindda cui plus medication =.=
made mi duper sleepy n drowsy ytd, lols...
bt seriously, it was fun...
e male were v nice n gentlemen...

i can hardly listen, due to my block-ears... damn!!
recently flu/sore throat season...
many gt flu/sore throat... so ppl betta tc urself k...

darling coming over my hse ltr =D
happy~~
bt is bcuz of maple, damn!!
recently kip telling mi to dl dl dl...
arghhh...
so he's coming over to copy paste frm his thumb drive...
he helped mi to lvl quite a lot liao...
i din get to start e new chara, was a waste...
bt nvm, juz for fun...
anw i dun think i haf much time to play maple too...
more of fb game =p

having sore throat since ytd morning...
made honey to work ytd n today...
today's throat worsen... more pain...
ate 1 spoon of smoothen throat thingy...
whole of today had 1 small bun + mushroom soup nia...
nt feeling much hungry T.T
im told to go c doc n take MC =x
told mi dat, MC tml if still so sick...

hmm... if realli tml still so sick... i will take MC...
having sore throat, till muz voice changed...
aso having bad flu since morning at work...
making my voice even worst...
ears blocking due to both...
too heaty liao...

i hope tml will recover...
i miss my BF badly =(

hehex... like v v v long nvr post pics liao...
shall post sth =p

ytd went to mid darling...
i realli find dat his hse is my 2nd hse le =p
plan to buy mooncake for him n his family...
he say i waste money T.T
bcuz his mommy might nt buy mahx, so i buy for dem...
1yr onliz once, somemore i find mooncake fest v meaningful n important...
noe dey like goodwood park hotel de durian snowskin...
so last mth went taka look-c-look-c...
bishan booth buy 2 snowskins durian frm goodwood park hotel...
2 snowskins green tea frm four season durian...
cuz dis is e onliz 1 i find e green tea snowskin still ok...
somemore nt many sell green tea snowskin...
dunno e mooncake i bought can ant, darling nvr tell mi...
dunno he gt eat mahx T.T
dunno he gt touched dat i bought mahx T.T

ytd darling received his ASUS netbook...
today jiu so gan jiong install dis n dat le...
bought xternal disk drive too...
nw e xternal disk drive at my hse =p
nxt wk den pass to him...
i hope nxt wk will b successful...

today went post YOG mtg part 2...
though i reached 50mins late, bt dey juz nice start...
at least betta den last wk...
though still quite waste time -.-
took dis aft e whole thing =p

i hope darling realli make up his mind...
whether to go aus wif sch...
dis mean i gotta rush my things for him fast~
today take immediate afternoon leave...
gonna mid him n his mommy to do passport thingy...
cuz on9 cannot make, due to some issue...
dat means i gonna haf slightly longer weekends =D
ytd went shopping spree wif desiree again~
darling came to pass mi sth n dinner wif us jiu go le...
darling 'hou sei lei' = li hai
my darling always make mi proud of him...
damn gd in every single thing...
tml gonna b a happy day wif BF~
he gonna receive his 10" ASUS $499 notebook arrive at his door step...

hmm...
dunno who else still reading my blog...
dunno BF still reading my blog mahx...
bt anw, my blog is always filled wif posts even aft few days/wks =D

hmm...
2times, darling told mi he's gng oversea...
bt 2times say nt gng...
was preparing sth for him...
looks like gonna kip till he realli gng away den will gif him le...
though still nt complete, bt hmm...
shall c again bahx...

he gonna haf his exam nxt wk...
n today will b 1 of it...
he is gonna b busy...
hmm...
did i mentioned in my previous post??
hmm... nvm, i shall say...
darling so busy dis yr...
i believe nxt yr too...

im so worry of my future, his future n our future...
i realli wish he will b successful...
at least nt for mi, nt for us bt for himself...
hehex...
intense training for ur competition ar, JYs :)

recently sth in my mind shd haf gone wrong...
okies, let's say juz happen de...
i suddenly go cut apple...
been mths or few yrs since i last cut fruits to eat...
juz nw came bak, wash my clothes (sth v weird which i dun normally do)
aft dat cut apple to eat...
clean my rm...
today sth muz haf gone wrong to mi...
dis r juz sth dat happen n i find it v shocking...
unlike mi...

(Pardon my long long post, it gonna b v commentable bt plz dun comment mi... im fumming up n dis is my blog, u can always "alt +F4" if u dun like... thanks =D)

recent news shocked mi, especially today...

world indeed changing... ppl changing too...
ppl becoming more n more open, dat is so OMG case!!

was reading newsppr dis morning, 1st news shocked mi on dis issue...
youngster(which also mean teenagers, frm e newsppr details) making love in public...
is like so 'WTF', u all brainless ar...
cannot juz close e door n do it behind e door *faint*
soemore kana shoot n post onto forums n newsppr...
wad's wrong wif our youngster nwadays ar??
haiishx... bad pollution...
Y-generation lidat liao... wad will e Z-generation do nxt time...

okies, enuff of those Y n Z... nw is O
those O-generation aso...
-- getai --
aint getai something more traditional n antique
y more of dis cases coming out...
as a gurl, i feel so insulted by dem...
especially those guys acting as a gurl doing some s2pid thingy abt gurls...
is so damn insulting lor...
nt juz those guys, those gurls too...
getai leh, PG leh...
u tot wad M18 ar... another 'WTF' issue...
nt onliz O-generation watch k, Y-generation aso will watch de ok...
dat's so lame...
reading n toking abt it making mi fumming...

plz ppl, respect urself;respect gurls(women or wad so eva)
e world is tuning, i dun like... y lidat...
xtreme cases more n more... y??
i cant seems to fit into dis kind of world...
okies, im a blockhead n tradition kind of gurl...
arghh... sianz...
i always tot onliz guys will so idiot, gurls r getting my nerves up too...
looks like other den guys, im starting to dislike gurls too...
nw i noe y any1(stranger) touches mi juz abit i aso feel so *yucks*
i feel so anti-social n unapproachable nw T.T

aiyoyo ~~

my butt so pain T.T
ytd onliz abit pain, somemore is slightly higher abit de area...
today wakey is whole butt lor =.=

somemore morning wakey whole body frm head to toes aso pain...
muscle ache till quite jialat...
somemore air-con, making my bone wanna 散了

dunno to summary or tell y pain... too lazy to type =p

anw im looking forward to sept, oct, nov n dec =D

hopefully b4 my nxt pay, i haf enuff to spend =x

waa...

even my onliz entertainment - fb aso tio block...
sianz~
y co so SC 1 T.T

ltr gng for my o's eng oral...
scare n nervous...
nvr been to dat sch b4, nidda figure hw to walk to their hall
standard drop alot compare wif last time...

try so many kind of msn aso cant...
looks like i gonna bury under all my data starting frm today liao :(
so bad lor~

sometimes u think is rite doesn't mean is rite...
sometimes u think is wrong doesn't mean is wrong...
sometimes u think is ok doesn't mean is ok...
sometimes u think is nt ok doesn't mean is nt ok...

so dun use ur 'sometimes' to determine e rite n wrong...
use ur 'feeling' to feel dem...
dis is wad our skin, our heart, our blood r for...

u shd noe wad to do n wad nt to do...
self-restriction
'care' is e word
'respect' is e word
hw u wan ppl to treat u, do e same way...

boi n gurl gt their diff... dun compare!!
bt when it comes to r/s, do ur best... dat u think is e best...

'tolerance' is e word
'trust' is e word
u wan ppl to trust u, prove it...
past present future
hw u wan it to b, u lead e way urself...
ur loved ones onliz can accompany n guide u along...

love is a game??
love is a gamble??
y ppl always say so, bcuz dey gt hurt b4...
hurt doesn't mean restriction...
hurt doesn't mean u avoid...
go for it once again...
u will nvr get another chance to love a person who realli love u dat hard...
it might haf, bt nt always...
think thinks thought
put in e effort n u will c e result...
bt we noe put in effort doesn't mean u wan result for r/s...
if u're looking for result or ans, mean u nt loving...
u're asking for sth n wan sth in return...
a NO-NO for r/s

love hard
love smart
love blind








*In my opinion

相爱容易相处难


要维持一段爱情更难

从作天气到今天；气到血管要爆了

angry, pissed, sad, disappointed... arghhh...
dis is nt e 1st time, 2nd time or 3rd time lor...

ytd went dinner wif dear, Rey, aft work...
half way thru dinner, toking abt r/s...
out of sudden she ask mi where is BF...
i assume he is at hm cuz since morning msg, he jiu nvr sms/call mi le...
he aso nvr mention to mi he is gng out...
aft work sms him nvr reply...
so i told dear 'he is at hm lor'
having his 2wks holi...

aft dinner sms him, no reply...
reach hm sms him no reply...
so i tot he slping or sth de... cuz he piggy...
den on9 saw his sis, den noe he went out mid frenz...
i was like 'WTH!! nt again'
always nvr tell mi... muz thru another person den noe...
if nt jiu shi i muz ask him personally den will noe...
finally he reply mi ard 10+
tell mi he was slping, damn %^#$*!^ lor...
i reply 'sure??' den he say at fren hse slp...
WTH!!! double angry + pissed + sad + disappointment lor...

cant get to slp though v tired lor...
slp liao aso like nvr slp well lor...
still dream abt i angry angry...
morning wakey damn angry aso lor...
dun call/sms him, i feel so uncomfortable...
bo bian lor...
s2pid him, make mi super angry...
dunno is i asking too much or i nt understanding enuff lor...
since dat is e case den i no nid tell him aso lor...
i will force myself nt to, arghh... damn angry

没有我，你已然能过得很好
没有你，我不知道该从何开始

aft wed last full dress rehearsal...
sat jiu actual le...
mommy n didi came to watch...
went bak hm ask for feedbak...
though i noe wed performance was realli bad...
aft mommy tell mi, still feel quite sad...
dragon head stuck =.=
lighting GG =.=

leg damn pain...
last few rehearsal my leg hurts...
always haf to walk so weird...
carrying dat 3kg prop n wearing dat shoe dat hurt mi lots...
sat change plaster saw it bleeding, so i change...
ytd take out plaster, leg like machiam infection =.=
damn disguisting lor...
b4 taking out plaster, i went skating...
cant even wear it on, heng darling help...
manage to squeeze my injure leg in =.=
aft dat still ok, onliz take out le den pain T.T

ytd watched YOG repeat on chn8, find it quite nice wor...
since sat till ytd i watch jiu find dragon v nice =D
TV onliz show dragon nvr show dragon gate, sad lah...
though e main is e dragon, so s2pid lor...
bt its realli nice, i like...
im still waiting for pics to b post on my fb, hehex...

sat damn angry, damn pissed...
frm my previous post shd b able to c bahx...
though i cant rmbx did i update ytd =x
reach hm quite late, 1am on sun morning...
slp at 2+ n wakey at 8+
nap at dar de hse for like 4hrs aft watching repeat...
dey intro team team country till i fall asleep =.=

shall upload my injure leg tonite when i reach hm...

有时候不知道比知道来的好
只少不用烦，不用想

m i being too sensitive or nt understanding enuff??
behind my bak, i cant c nvm...
bt i kip c-ing, damn OMG lah...
realli cant stand it lor...
yet i cant show out bcuz i dun wanna spoil e mood...
bt too late, mood spoilt...
i noe its jealousy...
v high jealousy somemore...
haiishx... sianz
trying to b brave n stay on in front him...
bt im aching inside mi...
hearing n c-ing those...............

唉哟，我的天啊~ 今天是黑色星期五也



当农历七月碰上黑色星期五时



大家要特别小心哦~






不知道男友会不会送我到家才回呢






好需要多点睡眠哦~



讨厌的是明天要好早到哦



真是的，难道不能让我睡多一点吗？



好累啊~






爱情是谅解；爱情是抱容；爱情是很深奥的



爱情是你我可能不会懂的



但我还在学着懂 :)

宝贝，爱你哦~



嘻嘻

sometimes smile n laughs doesn't mean im ok...
im doing so juz to nt let u feel sad or bad...
deep inside mi, im nt ok...
deep inside r crying, angry, disappointed, jealousy n etc...
yet nth shown in appearance...

few days ago, when clock strike 1st day of 7th mth...
my fone rang while chating wif u on fone...
idk who called, din pick up...
i told u, u say 'i dun care, u tell mi dis for wad, im toking to u'
i feel so sad n scared...
bcuz its e v 1st hr, n is a num idk kip calling...
end up having 6 missed calls frm dis same person...
juz nw, dis num called again...
sound like indian, he called e wrong num...
i was like 'WTF', call mi n say 'harlow'
den diam for so long den say wrong num

每个人对爱情的定义都不一样



有些人对爱情的定义也会变



当变化来的时候我们应该怎么办







爱情不仅仅只是爱情



当爱情有了要求那就是埋怨



埋怨就是爱情的红灯

haiishx...

ytd training - full set
slept 1am, wakey 6.20am -.-
morning wakey nt feeling well...
wo noes onliz 1hr jiu 'lai ang' liao =.=
make mi even more xinku n uncomfortable...
bt compare to morning wakey, slightly diff kind of nt feeling well...
tonite gt CR - no nid costume
think gonna slp ard 1am aso bahx =.=
sianz~
i wish YOG faster end, damn hate it...
nt as we xpected...
ytd n today realli my bad day...
bt luckily i gt high tolerance =D

been so lazy to blog...

every mth aso nt enuff money to spend =.=
aso been busy wif YOG...
alot of updates bt lazy to blog...

comp spoilt last wk, bt fixed le (aft few days)
lappie cant use, cuz charger spoilt =.=
nt intend to buy a new charger unless i realli nid to...
anw gt comp to use liao...

gonna install MS Office 2010 full version dis sun wif darling's help...
bought wif darling, shared...
2007 - 2010 (free upgrading)
damn worth =D
nt gonna claim frm papa bahx... since i alr start working le...

dunno can work hw long here...
hopefully everything turn fine nxt yr...
i think i gotta chant for (us)...
even if realli cannot, at least i muz find another gd co like dis =D

爱情不仅仅是爱而已，也包含了你我可能会怯法的


things start to change when both r tgt for long...

esepcially when 1 change n another dun
or
1 is changing faster den another

女人终是比较了解女人
但天塑造男人与女人相配

MY COMP ANNOUNCED DEAD AGAIN!!

MY LAPPIE ASO DEAD!!

e more u love, e more u hurt...
even if juz a simple action(s)/word(s)...

u may b understanding, bt when ur bf/gf is nt understanding enuff,
u haf to b more understanding...

where is my smile??

我的‘他’又在哪呢！

变

怕

越来越近了!

1 head triple big...

haiishx...

who will/can unds mi...

nobody cares...

angry;pissed;sad;disappointment;stress

aso nt feeling v well...

here pain dere pain, giddy-ness, tired

i believe sooner or ltr...

morning wakey nt long jiu start to flu liao...
all e way till 5pm lidat =.=
damn xinku when working lor...
den make mistake =.=

gonna chiong work liao~
mth end =.=

hmmm...

where is love??

today hor...
v angry lor...
e fucking buses, arghhh... damn CB
1 bus can w8 for 15mins, while normally i w8 onliz e most 5mins...
i w8 till damn du lan lah...
2buses aso so long...
end up late...
e most irritating thingy is traffic jam lor...
bus crowded, traffic jam...
n im late for 30mins...
is like WTF lah...
late 1min = 0.01 of my pay gone...
imagine late 30mins for juz 1day, 0.3 of my pay GG lah...
think le jiu angry...
i din overslept, i din left hse late...
juz bcuz of e freaking buses n im late...
isn't it v pissed n angry...

cant imagine 0.3 of my pay gone in juz 1day...
dat's realli FUCK

pain pain pain...

haiishx...

seems like my insisting can realli getting higher...
my stubborn-ness too, higher...
jealousy aso higher...
hmmm... nidda do sth abt it...

jialat!!

ARGHHH...

looks like my jealousy lv still v high...
nt in e mood...
shall cool myself n MIA a day bahx...
bt i dun think i can even MIA for a day...
ppl will say im ridiculous... sua
if onliz those posts nt del, i can still read dem...
n b more emo, more depress...






im waiting...
i noe it will happen...
juz e matter of time...
bt i hope it can dun happen...

damn fucking suay today lah...
dun even wanna mention...
angry...

hmm...

tok lesser n lesser...
soon will become muter...
become more n more anti-social n nt approachable...

hmm...

sth muz haf gone wrong on mi...
bt at least to close frenz n family still hai hao...

haiishx...

today wakey super tired...
dunno y last cant get to slp...
flip here n dere for like 45mins...
morning alarm hvn ring jiu wakey liao...

dar will b having his tests, proj submission dis wk...
so frm mon-fri cannot disturb him...
he haf to do well... so if darling happen to read my post...
JYs hun *muackz*
hopefully i can slp too T.T

my knee still pain pain... 2nd day le...
is like inner pain...
walk will abit pain...
even nt walk aso can feel uncomfortable of my knee...

i was suppose to haf training today aft work...
bt ended up nvr go cuz of "gurls mthly process"
sth lidat...
haha... shall nt elaborate further...

find myself quite suay sia...
especially waiting for bus...
dis 2days overslept, heng gt mommy to wake mi up...
left hse still same timing...
onliz waiting for bus long...
driver damn damn damn, think le jiu angry...

quite moody sia...
i starting to find myself hiding things to myself...
so fan... nvm...

went sakae sushi buffet at tpy today wif desiree...
service dere much worst den raffles place de...
cant b bother to say abt it...

feeling so irritated...
feeling so pissed...
feeling so moody...
feel like crying...

indeed im...
im thinking...
im wondering...

bt ilu