Sad ; Disappointment ; Sick

i tot u will be e 1st to wish mi... no
i tot u was asleep aft 12mn... no
i saw ur name appear in my inbox, aft 12mn, thinking u will wish mi happy b'day(e 1st)... no

yet u replied my sms onliz :(

dat was so sad, so disappointed...
if u're asleep, im ok wif it... cuz u're tired n went to slp...
i will receive it tml...
bt no :(

21st seems like a num to mi, telling mi im turning older... n aging soon...
still e same restriction as e past...
i wan to rebel once, juz once... i wanna haf abit more freedom...
i wish to stay out late...
i wish to stay over at bf's hse even juz usual day...
i wish to go oversea wif bf/frenz...
dis r wad i say rebel once n more freedom...
bcuz i noe its hard, mommy restrict mi though papa dun care de...
i used to restrict myself nt to let dem worry...
bt nw im turning 21, will i get to haf more freedom?? idk
i wish... im wishing hard... hoping i will...

hw i wish dis day(today) dun arrive...
im scare...
i noe i will haf disappointment n sadness...
bt yet i cant stop e time frm moving...
still, it arrive... im feeling all dis...
im still kindda sick, hope will b betta ltr...
din get enuff slp, gotta nap awhile ltr...