This feeling never go...
Since primary school, to secondary school, then polytechnic, now university.
Why am I so useless, especially when it comes to studies.
Never once I did well for studies, yet I keep trying and trying and trying.
Sometimes I wish to give up, tired of trying and failing.
From 'HOPE' to 'HOPELESS'
A person like me who can't handle stress, can go nowhere far.
I've been turning circle in studies.
Spending tons of money on studies [my own hard earn money]
So what if I have back-up plan everytime, I'm not doing well, I'm going nowhere.
Sometimes I feel rather useless and depress.
I have lots of plans and back-ups, but I really detest going for back-ups.
Making me feel more dumb.

The only happy moment are usually with my loved ones, they make me pull down for awhile.
But I still have to force myself to face the reality, though I really don't like it.
Because I know I'm always doing and going extra miles compare to others.
People always see me positive on outer, but inner - its horrible, and I don't think anyone want to see/know.
Depression - Never leave me since I was very young, and I know it will never leave me

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