[edited on 30april'09]

finally finished moi report for TRIF...
nw gng to submit le...

haiishx... r u thinking or missing mi??

[let mi b selfish, will u]

signing off ::: 22.04pm
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haiyah, always making mi worry...

report chionging liao~

signing off ::: 20.30pm
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dar de exam muz jyjy... score all =p

had been finding a comp wif fb... lols
no fb = no use [haha]
sch comp block fb, *fuck*

signing off ::: 2.04pm
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arghh... SCH COMP SUX!!!
i cant access fb at all, fucking hell...
WTF sch doing, arghh... angry lah...
bloody hell shit lor...

hmm... wonder y everytime u called moi name, i feel so weird...
mayb i rather u nt call moi name especially toking to mi...
i alr nt used calling ur name unless its needed to...

feeling weird~

signing off ::: 16.01pm
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today lec was bored...
onliz like 1hr 15mins lec...
den jiu go hm le =p
i dam like tues, 2hrs lec nia... cfm early dismiss...
n aso thurs =p cuz onliz 3hrs lab...
lalala~

gtg do things liao, wee~

no fb = bored
no fren = bored
nth to slack = bored

bored + bored + bored = TOTAL BOREDOM~

signing off ::: 3.40pm
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lvl2 comp lab dun allow mi to access facebook T.T
bored to death alr lah...

I NID MORE OF UR ATTENTION!!! ><

signing off ::: 17.52pm
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haiishx... 2nd wk of sch starting tml le...
juz finished moi lunch...
though its raining, im feeling warm...
mayb e food too hot, when i eat =p

signing off ::: 15.00pm
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feeling terrible terrible terrible...

waiting for sms...

signing off ::: 11.49am
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woke up nt feeling v well...
head duper pain n heavy...
n nt enuff slp too...

DPRESSION DPRESSION DPRESSION DPRESSION DPRESSION DPRESSION DPRESSION DPRESSION

on-off cry mode 2+hrs...
head pain x2 more serious...
slpy bt dunno whether can slp...

[[will everything get well???]]

signing off ::: 22.35pm
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ltr bringing moi bro n papa to swim, near moi hse dere de...
dar will b coming too =p
bt i nt swimming... juz pei dem...
tonite haf to go dicussion meeting alone liao...
cuz dar nt feeling well, nid rest rest...
hmm... actually i aso nt feeling well, dat's y nt gng to water...
so is like both of us aso nt feeling well, like for days liao...

GET WELL SOON ^^

[edited on 24april'09]

hmm... went to ole check, n i saw sth...
NAFFA is on 30june, dunno real or nt...
its under IP/SIP dere de...
ppl checked tell mi k?? thanks =)

signing off ::: 11.06am
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I MUZ GET WELL FAST!!!

yep, nidda get well fast...
kindda nt feeling v well, headache for like few days alr...
assign had been up since e 1st wk sch...
n all of us alr started working on our assign...
more on individual, lesser on grp...
i realli haf to buck up for last lap, full strength chiong le...
say like v easy lah, bt do, abit hard lor =x
so i will try moi best...
nw i realli lesser on game...
is like 1-3days on game... everytime game aso like e most 2hrs...
is alot lesser den i used to play during moi holi...
holi can everyday play, 7-9hrs... worse come to worst 10hrs aso can...
of cuz nt str8 cut so long lah...
gt like rest few hrs in e afternoon, den aft dinner again...
means, morning aft wash up jiu play...
lunch jiu rest till aft dinner, den again...
dis holi was spent most on gaming...
sch re-open, im glad i can adapt so fast...
so im quite happy for myself, lols =p

past few nites had been toking on fone wif dar till like 12+am or 1+am
hmm... so everyday like quite tired, especially ytd...
went out wif mei aft sch...
aft lesson, yan jy mei mi, went to biz park eat...
aft dat mi n mei jiu head to bugis walk walk...
as in e new mall dat opened beside e bugis street...
still gt some store hvn open, dey say 'in May'
finish walking jiu go suntec le...
bt when we're gng bugis, i alr wanted to zzz...
so when reach suntec, i abit like slpy mood...
so i nvr pei mei walk to MRT station...
i took bus outside SCC...
board bus jiu zzz, bt when change another bus jiu nvr le... haha
den nite still tok on fone wif dar till 1am lidat...
so i was kindda drop dead to slp all e way till morning...
though i was moody half way thru e fone... thinking i might nt slp well e nite...
juz as i tot, of e ans

signing off ::: 9.14am

sch had been bored, real boredom man...
as in, i mean proj manag... super lonely...
damn loner till i finally noe 1 or 3 perhaps due to grp-ing
thanks van, mel n jh... gt grp le... haha
anw im still loner at dere -.-

tml aft lesson gng out wif mei =p
bugis new shopping mall n suntec, lalala~
steamboat wif dar ard e corner...
wonder when go eat =p

miss DD ><

i nid moi personal consultant urgently!!!

gonna hear him ltr =p

signing off ::: 20.42pm
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七个对不起,换来女孩跳楼，男孩疯了。

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起……

我的想法 ：一句对不起，可以换来许多意思。可曾想过，你的一句对不起对他（她）来说是什么意思呢！一个对我来说很有意思的故事，对你会有意思吗？想想吧！

finally, today im nt mapling... haha
1st bre8 thru...
nw chit chat in msn, n aso fb-ing moi 'restaurant city'
let's share abt today in sch bahx...

had lec wif mei today... as usual lec ended early...
den eat tgt at engine'sch
n 50mins spare, we sit at concourse slack n chat...
lab was horrible terrible, damn lonely n alone...
is like no1 i noe dere lor...
heng, another subj gt frenz =p

i realli miss dar... ytd mid him le, bt dunno y feel like so long din c him le...
@.@ [xiang si bin?? love sickness??] lols
watched today 7pm chn8 show till wan cry, is like zomg...
called dar twice, n finally heard his voice... [super happy]
tell him sms mi if he can on fone ltr...
bt hvn receive his sms ><

signing off ::: 21.53pm
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hmm... pair up wif another gurl...
wasn't dat bad nw...
nt as lonely le bahx...
mayb nxt lesson e ppl will b cfm...
still having add/drop, hope clz will haf a few more ppl or sth bahx...
n aso hope can cope well...
NO MORE GAMING!!!
seriously, no more mapling too often le...
stop alot liao...

signing off ::: 15.57pm
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okies, i had been a lazy blogger... i noe
so nw im blogging, in sch... since sch re-open...
im so lonely in lesson nw...
3hrs lab, passed 1+hr alr...
others had formed grp xcept mi ><
feel so isolated n boring~ [is e word]
nw count dwn to clz dismiss =x

ytd went bak TP for sem briefing...
haiishx...
still hvn form grp leh, latest fri nid submit cher...
all gt grp xcept mi...
looks like i gonna w8 till cher gif mi grp liao...
hope i wun pull dwn e grp dat im posted to...

once yr3 starts, everything comes...
stress;fan;sickness;slpless blah blah blah~
2 subjs + MP[Major Project] + SIP[attachment]
aso din find intern company, sianz~
muz w8 till cher gif us those links liao...
hope can gt into e choice of company...
hope i can do well dere...
hope interviews all dat can pass aso...
aiyah, hvn sch re-open alr v fan le...
holi too long le lah, slack too long le lah...

n.. N... NAFFA IS COMING!!!

say hao holi wan go xercise all dat, aso nvr =p
okies, slack too much... NAFFA si liao...
NAFFA consider in seal pts lor, cannot fail...
onliz scare running, other easy lah xD
for guyz muz pass, for their NS de...
for us, chiong seal pts lor...

aaAAhhHHHH!!! sch re-open on mon
sianz, sianz, sianz...
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10th april 09
sry for nt updating for like so many days...
was busy mapling ar =p
nw den free to update...
update king's adv. b'dae celeb.
went to bugis for dinner...
den walked to "durian"
had lotsa fun n joy wif dem...
crap alot, took alot of pics too...
n our latest grp pics ^^
i took alot of those v "throw face" pics lor =x
like alot of ppl looking lidat, so "bai chi" @.@
to add on, kor like to snap shot =x
haha, actually is bcuz of his cam... haha

-our promise-
gng bak to ftpss on our 10th yr =D
special special de

time for pics to say e words

today post will b abt ytd...
cuz ytd wa darling's official 18th b'dae...
actually prepared a few surprises...
bt due to some reasons, plans cancel...

watched 'shinjuku incident' wif dar, kindda last min decide...
nice movie =D
v long nvr watch movie tgt liao...
v long nvr go walk walk tgt liao...
dar say gng steamboat tgt soon, hope so bahx...
dat time say wan come mi hse, till nw aso nvr ><

time for pics =p

didn't wan to update today...
bt was realli angry...
so update to fa xie a lil...
super duper bu gao xin...

everything ruin... ****

like few days din update liao hor... hehex...
in msn count dwn, here i think no nid count dwn bahx =p
so looking forward to tml...
hope everything goes smoothly...
pics most likely will post on fri =p

today is another no mood day...
knn, damn no mood...
damn fuck-up...
duper c everything aso buey song...
wasted 2 bloody hell days at hm, baby-sit...
alr no mood, he x2 moi bad mood... power~

nw onliz gt 1 word, 4 letters/alphabets...
e word is 'F U C K', yes!!! fuck fuck fuck!!!
today moi meal damn irregular lor...
wanna start moi regular meals aso cant, damn du lan wan lor...

fucking waste 2days... rawl

ps ::: pardon mi, wif all e words... bt if any1 nt happy wif moi post today, juz fuck off... -no comment plz-

nw moi mood is fucking bad...

dun ask mi y...

wee~
no longer dat fan;stress;no mood...
nw normal mood le...

thanks darling...
u noe y =p

signing off ::: 20.51pm
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guess where m i nw...

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(TIME'S OUT!!!)

im at moi darling's hse...
bt he still hvn reach hm -.-
nt to surprise him or wad...
is we said 1pm mid at his hse de...
bt he hvn reach hm...
he frm sem go all e way to wdl buy his stuffs...
n im left in e hse, in his rm using his comp...
to play moi "restaurant city" =p
n aso blogging dis post...
plus, im drawing sth in his book =p
while waiting for him... okies im smart enuff to use his comp...
wakaka...
his comp nid pw, heng can login =p

i think he will reach hm ard 2pm or mayb ltr -.-

haha... nw nt realli sianz le...
cuz playing 'restaurant city' [fb de, playfish aso]
yan intro de =p
though quite lame, bt fun... haha

ltr gng out alone...
go bishan, den go hm eat...
aft dat go out again [help mommy buy things n pass things to her fren]

nw moi main worries is moi cousin ><